wtf.
do i have a face that say, hey i can be your friends with benefits?!
why does everyone treat me the same way.
A was like that so does R.
they just hug and kiss as if we were tgt. and when we arent alone.
they act as though we were just friends.
WHATS THIS?!
FUCKED UP!! SCREW YOU… i detest this. i hate it. i dont want to be define so cheap. idw!!!
we all know how it feels to be cheated on.
we all seen stupid women before.
let me tell you what they were. they look exactly like me.
i am probably the worst and dumbest woman you ever met.
you might think that i should break up or i should hate that guy. but i just cant bring myself to do it.
even though i caught him in bed with another girl, even though his other girlfriends have confronted me before, even though i had to hear the truth from another person. i still choose to forgive and carry on.
it was 7 months ago. where i receive many close friends telling me about how he had his wonderful affair with someone named E. then things just keep happening and happening. its like being stabbed once in the heart and people just dont think thats enough. they have to do it again.
then it was sms and sms. needless to say. you should know what that means.
1 month ago. i went to find HIM. after school, thinking of how to spend our day together. to find out that, theres a girl sandals outside his house. being positive i presume it was L (his brother ex girlfriend’s). then the next thing i found out the room was locked. taking a chair, i peeped into the hole, to find out that theres another girl A. sitting beside him.
and there he is, able to squeeze his way through despite being caught in the act. claiming its F (his friend) girlfriend. and his mother was there to back him up.. so i assume what his mum say was the truth.
yesterday, someone called C add me on facebook. claiming that she knows me. so be it. claiming she saw me before. when i didnt. and finally claiming her friend A is my boyfriend’s girlfriend. what should i do. i get her number and just casually messaged her. and wala! her shocking attitude surprise me.
its not as though i was the one who two time her. i am a victim too. hello!? so now its like a mistress scolding the wife for letting the husband have an affair with her???
then recently friends of mine told me that +/- 1 day from christmas they saw him with A. and there we go, i was alone and there he is having fun being “busy”.
i mean does my life had to have so many turbulent? all i wish for was to be spend every single rest of my life with him. and all i get back is betrayal and being hurt. leaving tears flowing as though they are free. am i being unreasonable to wish like this?
