JLZW. this is for you.you seems like a replica of KYL. what can i say. i guess i was a little too not over you. i was still wondering. are you sick till you are uncontactable, died, or did you just decided not to talk to me because you have a gf.

flashbacks of me talking on the phone was everywhere.

你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹沒

你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落

分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过

我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够給我

hmmmm. i was feeling bored now. so i decided to blog here. anyway. i realised i somehow starting to hate guys. like literally! hahahaha. maybe i was a little insane deep down.

this song has been revolving in my mind. 安静了by SHE

i just realised that so many things had happened within the brothers and yet, i didnt even know what i can do to salvage it. i know i sound very pathetic. but i just cant help to say that yes i feel so upset inside. its like i am so useless.

though most of the brothers was happy happy go lucky when they meet, but behind each other all the back stabbing begins. i mean like whats the point. somehow seeing what had happened between them just make me feel so heart pain. looking at them. it just pains me to see them brothers now strangers. its like we had been a part of a family for quite some time. about 6 months and now you are telling me this?

those that were neglected are now dejected. feeling at lost. losing everyone they had, and seeking another exit. i dont know, like why am i so useless, unable to salvage this. by the time i know about it. everything was gone. i mean. what is happening. where are all those self claimed “brothers for life” and your posing of your favourite sign.

another lesson to learn from this. this shows that, relationships are easy to break. all it takes is a little distrust and a little suspicion. and some miscellaneous stuff and there it goes. KA BOMB! hais!

note to self! (my second time typying!!!)

1. start mugging!

2. slim down

MUG MUG MUG, this three words has been in my head since tuesday. after i get my marketing results. GRRR. a big fat C was sitting in front of me smiling!! this means i suck at it!

then comes business software, a little more i can get a B. okay so this means fat C+ was sitting infront of me again! BOOHOO! i hate the alphabet C.

next day, went for POA, okay a little comfort for myself, a B, and is a B that is close to A! HEART WRENCHING!! study again!

then today went to school my macro was lousy! boohoo again! teacher was like saying work harder, i dont know she said that because she think i will do well or i am lousy. because its aB! okay. big slap at my face! and the 2Cs was like imprinted on my face. how embarassing! okay nevermind! i am going to work harder!!!

I TYPED THIS NOTE THE SECOND TIME! FYI! it was because of i dont know what reason. i think i press wrong things. but nevermind luckily i typed finished!!~ YAY!

GEORGINA CHEN! MUGGING TIME!!!

somehow, i just feel that i was cheated of my feelings. and somehow, i feel that maybe it was just a wishful thinking of mine..

trust me, i will not get anything involved with you anymore.

imsorrymylovedfromnowoniwoulddissapearfromyoursight…

finally today we are going clubbing. although not my style to go clubbing. but i was really bored already.

i guess i wont have enough cash, go clubbing and drink then go home. no cab for me i guess. need to rob the bank already! woohooo. joking.

yesterday had a tiff with jiajin. i guess he thought i was playing with him.

at first. he made me angry unknowingly.

then he ate all our chips. so i said F *** off. at msn

later i was talking to ian then he ask me F*** off too. then daniel also said oi diam la.

okay i was so mad. like what?! then i told ian to tell them say if they not happy they can come find me. dont scold using the lappy.

then daniel came, and being so pissed off, i scolded him off.

somehow i feel that i was the one at fault. boohooooo.

what can i say? sometime the guy above just like to play around with you.

when things seems grey and bad, things just turn better.

when i was tossing  and turning in bed, i was thinking of a scum.

and early this morning, this scum whom i was missing, talked to me after a long time.

when you thought of giving up doing something, be it love or what so ever. the guy above us just gave you some hope to make you feel things will get better when in actual fact. it might not or probably WONT.

i really want to give up this torment and there you are, giving me false hope. if you can sense i was blowing hot and cold to you, you should know what i am doing. i wasnt trying to play hard to get, but just to give up.

my mind told me to give up but yet my heart wont allow.

you ask for a very random request. what can i say? i can say if it was true i was really delighted. and if it wasnt true am i cheated? i was really confused. to be exact, i dont even know what you want. i dont even know why you didnt reply. i dont even know whats happening.

am i being fooled around or what?